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Lebaran 2020



Well...

Lebaran in quarantine sucks...

I hate this Coronavirus to ruin this year homecoming...

It sucks...

It really is...

The government officially bans this year Idul Fitri exodus...

So I spent the supposedly a family holiday...alone in Jakarta....

Thank God...there was a friend who kindly let me celebrate the festivity with the Lebaran cuisine...

Opor Ayam...

Ketupat (Although not home-made...still tasted as good)...

And sambal goreng ati...

What can I say...

If I were in the government, maybe the best option is to ban this exodus cause each and everyone of us might just spread this whole virus to our loved ones back in our hometowns...


So...

Aside from that I just realize...maybe this was not that bad after all.

Come on.

#1 Less accident (good for everyone)

#2 Less pollution (good for the earth)

#3 Less drama (good for my mental health)


I've got to think after being independent for almost 6 years...

Left home for college in 2012...that's when I started to live on my own...it's not that strange anymore...

I even think maybe I'm used to be alone.

But still...gotta say...for a once-1- year-celebration...this still sucks...


Anyway...

I start to think maybe I might live on my own until my thirties...

Cause 30s are the new 20s...I heard somewhere...or so what they say...

Maybe I might just enjoy this single life for a while...

There was a time when I was just rushing to settle down...

Seeing some of my friends have married...with kids...and Instagram family portraits (sorry I just feel pressured)...

That's why I log out of Intagram here and there...

But genuinely...I wanted to be one of those "Keluarga Muda"...

Basically...start the family in your 20s...

Where you've got to grow together as a family...

Where you've got to live together through thick and thin...

Where you've got another mouth to feed (so maybe you might be more considerate and wiser in life as not to be selfish...that's it's not about you...instead it's about us)

Where you've got a place, a thing, a family of your own to come home to...


Well...

This ain't a movie...

This is real life...

I guess...

I mean...this is what best for me now...

Be single and just live this single life and still be happy and not to compare my life with those who already "settled down"...

Cause at the end of the day, happiness is a mindset thing, not a status, not in posting Instagram photos, not in the eyes of others...but happiness is something you inherently have deep down...

Something you feel...

Something you taste...

Something that fits...

Something that uniquely yours...


Side note: I hope I don't write this just to do my loneliness justice...but I think it really comes from what I've been contemplating these past few days...


So my happiness for now...(I don't know long-term)

Is to live well alone...

Be productive alone...

Be independent alone...

And have fun alone...along the way...

No attachment...

No commitment...

No responsibility...which I only am responsible to myself...


So yeah...

Coronavirus + PSBB + loneliness = Lebaran 2020.


~ Peace out, beautiful readers ~


#Lebaran2020

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